michelle's profile街角的祝福...Milky-Michelle ...PhotosBlogListsMore  |  Tools Help |
|
July 24 Nothing is worth to be expect... Saturday night,maybe I should say almost midnight actually,got no interests on doing anything,just gazing...even forgot when did this way start,the sentence above could be the begining of another words.
Time abuse,or waste time can be understand easily,I never found a effective mothod to burning my own univers,no matter how important the siginificant of the events is,to me,never,I don't know what does it means and when will it come,do the same things again and again for years...
Although busy in the study for cet-4 and extra for cet-6,actually empty inside...not only because the 6 is too hard,but also many other things,MY HERO ended,have to wait till next yr,but who can tell me will another contestant better than KIMI or FF???of course not!I'm quite sure about that,i had long time didn't meet a guy who has got so brilliant personality as KIMI,yesterday night i was doing the same thing as u KIKI,fortunately i realized earlier than u,but more depress than u also,i think u can felt my suffering very well.
Seldom making phone calls with friends,at first I thought when the summer vacation dame,we'd crazy in our mobile phones,just spend each day on computer,boring tv programme,busy study and some gaze...so hollow~~~
The coming days that i will go to another uni,dammit! again! new atmosphere,new people,new everyday,everything will be new,but for me,there will always be a tiny little place in the buttom of my heart which only can let the most unbelievable memory in,priceless passion we've had,we used to have,that year,that month,now some left,some still stay,some never connect with,why do all this have to be true,we will have our different lives,maybe no more establish contact soon,maybe will bacome passers soon,then meet new passers...
I always thought i would got depression soon if i kept this way any longer...Turning one eye,great changes have taken,disgusting sentence i know,but that's the first one appeared in my head,how I pray for that day to come,that day which we'll be joined together close as one...When one person left,i lost a part of me,it's still so hard to believe,now i just got half of me,but when all of u left one by one,how much i can retain for myself?
KIKI~i'm so satisfield that i can meet u and realized we have so much same hobbies,u'll say:of course,u're MIMI,right? For my dear samll head~(sorry,but "small"reminds me a familiar song called"small bird"haha~KIKI u know,i really want to hear it again)u're so cute,u will never say no to me,no matter how unreasonable the events i want to do were...and no one would like u,i'll never forget u help me with my shoes tape on our way to the Bund where we had fantastic memory,I will do all what i can for u,i never found a word can discribe u as i want.For Joyce,hard working nurse,i don't want to explain how normal the suffering u've beared or still put up with in the hospital,the unmeaningful above i've written with sadness,glommy sunday would be its background i'd choose suicide at once!Just can wish all of u good luck...
It's the time to say goodbye although we still trust we will never say goodbye...are we?
 July 06 I'm sorry I love all of u... I...keep coldness,that's the safe side to me,I stand in it,so I don't get hurt...so please don't be angry with my decision...I just wanna say no matter how close we used to be,time will always let all of this become zero...always...
I used to think we all living by now except me,I living by pass,but today I realized that we all have to go ahead,although we never want to...
 2006-2007,这两年我像经历了一辈子的精彩一样,但我始终相信,我们中没有任何一人愿意让这些精彩成为昙花一现的焰火,耀眼却消纵即逝...请把目光放远,cause we've promised someone that we will create more mirecals,remember?
你们是我见过最血性的朋友,衷心祝福你们未来一路走好,会有再聚首的一天,接下来的日子大家的命运都不一样了,虽然一直坚信我们的心永远在一起,是否真的会彼此牵挂呢?我常常想,如果没有认识你们这群人,也许现在会比较开心吧...我不认为世界上还有其他人其他事能让我现在如此难过,只因为要离别,并不是生离死别,却将会成为我们每个人心里的伤口,但愿伤疤还没愈合的时候,就让我死掉吧...我们的回忆太脆弱,经得起时间的考验吗?
然而我们必须前行,带着故事和伤口前行...在悲伤时唱首歌...
 我们前方的路还很长,未来的人生很精彩啊,该是好奇每段路都有陌生人同行,爱或伤害,都欢呼,都是活过的证据啊,而不是让短暂的离别牵绊着我们的脚步,那样终将一事无成,请释怀...
很多感情努力了很久,却只是个屁,人生有很多不值得的东西,感情亦是如此...请原谅我的冷漠,原谅我的自私,因为我不想受伤...but I have to say I'm sorry I love all of u!I will not make,the same mistakes that you did,I will not let myself,cause my heart so much misery,I will not break,the way you did, you fell so hard,I've learned the hard way,to never let it get that far...Because of you,I never stray too far from the sidewalk,I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt,I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me,because of you I am afraid...I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out,I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes,I'm forced to fake,a smile, a laugh, every day of my life,my heart can't possibly break,when it wasn't even whole to start with...Because of you,I try my hardest just to forget everything,I don't know how to let anyone else in,I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty...
Because of you,because of all of u... 我翘课来送你们
  |
|
|
